Gurnam Gill
(An estabished Punjabi Novelist, Story writer & Poet)
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Bio-Data
Address:
70 Wadeville Ave, Chadwell Heath, ESSEX RM6 6EH (UK)
e-mail: gurnamgill@hotmail.com
Place of birth:
Dhani Pind (Jalandhar) INDIA
Education:
MSc.
Literary Works:
1. Adhdhi Sadhi (Novel) 2002
2. Udhas Palan Di Dastan (Short stories) 2000
3. Mujhe Malum Hai (Short stories) 2001
4. Sargam Ke Canvas Pai (Hindi ghazals) 2001
5. Kastoorian de jungle wich (Ghazalan) 1999
6. Sagar wichle Registan (Poetry)
7. Khushboo De Qatal Badh (Poetry)
8. Khamosh Ghatnawan (Short stories)
9. Kachch Dian Kabran (Short stories)
10. Unamed novel (Script)
11. Collection of Short stories (Script)
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Panjabi
Sahit Sabha East London
( Est. 1978)
70 Wadeville Avenue, Chadwell Heath, Essex. RM6
6EU.
Fax/Phone: 020 8220 4789
E-mail: pssel@hotmail.co.uk
Ref…………
Date
12-7-06
PRESS
RELEASE
On
9th July 2006,
Panjabi Sahit Sabha, East London, celebrated its 27th
annual function at Ley Street, Ilford which proved to be a great success.
The Mayor of Barking and Dagenham stated during her speech that the performances
were very enjoyable, inspiring and stimulating and moreover language was no
barrier.
The
programme was divided into three sessions. The first session consisted of two
discussion papers. The first paper was on Kinder’s literary works and the
second was on Puran Singh’s newly published book “The world of science”
which was read by Dhian Singh Shah Sikander from India. Many questions were
raised in regards to the world of science which were mainly focused on the
debate between science and religion. These questions opened new horizons based
on logic. The conclusion that was more or less reached was that religion had not
contributed anything positive to the mankind whereas science has. Everybody
seemed to be satisfied with the answers delivered by Dhian Singh Shah Sikander
on the context of science and religion. During this session the stage was
tactfully conducted by Shamsher Singh Shamsher from Punjab Radio, London.
After
tea break, the second session was of multi-lingual poetical symposium. Two poems
read by Mrs Musarat Ahmed in English were greatly appreciated by the
Mayor of LBBD, Mrs Dorothy Hunt who was present on the stage.
Mayor
of Barking & Dagenham: Dee Hunt with Mrs T K Gill & Mrs Jamu
Following
the poetry session there was a third session of cultural programme consisting of
music and dance. Artists who participated include Nishi Malhotra, Oma Devi,
Balbir Sufi, Ashiq, Sikander Brar, Rani Randeep, Jassa Maan, Inder Syal, Gurdev
Singh Dev, Kinder and Sooksham Parmar who captured the limelight. In addition to
this, there were also breathtaking performance of Dhol, Bhangra and Giddha by
the Dhol Academy and GGSKC.
During
all these three sessions, the honourable personalities who were present on stage
include the Mayor of LBBD, Chief Guest Dhian Singh Shah Sikander, Mrs Tara Devi,
Mrs Rajinder Kaur (Punjab Radio, London), Principal A S Toor, Sahir Arzoo, Mr
Puran Singh, Gurdas Parmar and Mr Kalha. The stage of the last two sessions was
conducted by Shekhar.
An
exhibition on heritage and culture was displayed by Balbir Singh Kanwal
throughout the whole day.
The
Mayor of LBBD along with the President and Chief Guest awarded particular
writers and artists who participated with souvenirs and cash rewards. The Mayor
presented an award certificate to Prof, Puran Singh, the President of the Sabha.
The
aim of this event was to create mutual understanding and friendly relation
amongst people from the diverse cultural backgrounds.
This
one day festival started at 1.30pm, ended with dinner at 10pm.
Funded
by Awards for All London.
Report by: Gurnam Gill ( Gen. Secretary).
In Search of God
The phenomenon of the Nature like Sun, Moon, Fire, Water, Trees and
Animals like Snakes, have been worshiped as Godly symbols through rituals and
sacrifices which many people these days call a blind faith. Perhaps they are
right.
Now most of the people in the light of scientific knowledge believe that
the God or the Supreme force that animates the world creatures and drives all
the planets in certain order and time; is shapeless, changeless and timeless. In
accordance with the rules and orders of that Supreme power; Nature has its own
laws and it is changeable too. Whether it is a climate change or environmental,
social or cultural; all these changes are based under the laws of the nature.
Religions have not been derived from the nature, they are simply man made
products. Before the existence of a man, there was no religion at all in this
world. However, its true that our soul is a tiny element of that Supreme power,
we call God. It is all around us, everywhere in the Universe and inside us as
well, in the form of breath or vital energy.
If we have to realize and harmonize with this power or to discover it
from within ourselves , we don’t have to adopt any particular religion. It is
totally needless.
Here I wish to repeat Indian President, Doctor Abdul Kalam’s words “
The same divinity resides in
everyone, therefore, no religion is involved. One has to discover God within
oneself. Religion is not a weapon to destroy property and murder thousands;
rather it is a shield to protect and preserve life.”
God never resides in temples or mosques instead, dwells in man. A man
when learns to love, care and realise friendly relations, and help the needy
regardless of their culture, belief, colour or creed; then he can said to be
like a God. In other words, his mind is creative like the creator of the
Universe.
It can be very ridiculous or irritable experience for some, when they
discover large crowds believe that a particular piece of sea water can become
sweet or observe idols in temples drinking milk or trapped by similar illusions.
It is a matter of pity and misfortune because such crowds have no eyes of
their own. They simply believe whatever is said and follow like sheep just
because they are followers.
They are in search of fish in a desert. What else can be expected from
such crowds ? They are living in and surrounded by scientific scenarios, yet far
away from rational thinking. It is also true that all of them are not
illiterate. Most of them possess academic achievements and still have no
knowledge about the concept of God. I would never ever dare to call them
uneducated or ignorant. All I wish they can proudly say, “My God is within and
around me, I don’t have to search in temples or mosques.”
By: Gurnam Gill
My First Visit to UK
(Trees of the Kew Garden)
I
was very keen to see England. The person who has never travelled in a foreign
country, feels all the more interested and excited. It was all due to the
kindness of Bha ji, my elder brother, Malkiat. If he had not come to England, my
desires also would have remained unfulfilled. In India, the profession of a
teacher at a polytechnic college is hardly enough to fulfil the needs of the
family.
It
was mid-sixties when Bha ji had sent me a sponsorship declaration. Families from
back home had just started to join people already settled in UK. Bha ji’s
family had also joined him about a couple of years ago.
This
laughable incident happened only yester-night. Along with Bha ji and his friend
Subash, I had seen a pub for the first time. Drinking beer at such a place has
its own charm. The atmosphere was intoxicated. The bar maids were pretty and
ever smiling. One of them was slim and blue eyed, and had long black hair. I
felt that I should continue drinking and gazing at her. Perhaps I was doing so.
That’s why, Bha ji had said that it didn’t behove gazing like this. I felt
that I had landed in a fairy-land. Instinctively, the words escaped from my
lips, “Well, Bha ji, I have seen this heaven by grace of you.”
“Does
not matter. As the layers of this heaven gradually get unfolded, you will get to
know” said Subhash addressing me. Bha ji first lightly laughed and then looking upwards at the ceiling said, “When we,
too, came here, we had this very misunderstanding to start with.”
“But,
What is there in it to misunderstand? You, yourself say that this is the daily
life of a common manual worker; In India, it is beyond even a judge, barrister
or professor to visit such a place every day.” I wanted to go to the bottom of
the matter, for my own information and knowledge.
Subhash
gulping half of the jug-like glass said, “You have a very short time for your
excursion and to understand all these things you need a long time. Just as sugar
cane juice, buttermilk, curds, salads and vegetables are very ordinary things
for a rural farmer, but residents of cosmopolitan city in India, just yearn for
them; in the same way, this beer and the bar provide glimpses of the
cosmopolitan life. They keep the labourers yoked like the bullock of an oil
mill. At the root of all these things, there are imperial interests.” Subhash
tried to make me understand but the matter was still not clear to me.
Then
Bha ji began to say, addressing Subhash, I don’t know why? In fact we could
not learn to conduct ourselves well in an alien land. This is the main cause of
our depression and lonesomeness.”
At
that time, words like sadness, home sickness and loneliness seemed to me,
strange and uncommon. I thought to myself that it amounted to rubbing shoulders
with death
while
enjoying all luxuries. Where is the lonesomeness and what type of depression is
there? They are leading a luxurious life, having colour tv’s, nice cars and
glory of majestic life like Sheiks or Nawabs.
We
emptied our glasses and were about to get out to return home. That pretty bar
maid was still filling glasses smilingly and coquettishly.
On
our way, Subhash said to Bha ji, Perhaps you may remember, When editor of
‘Love-Link’ Gurbux Singh had stayed with us for a couple of days, he then
said to us “Friends forget about the past and dreaming about the future. Learn
to live in the present. When people settle in foreign lands with families, they
never ever returned back home. Just wait, time must come for equality and
diversity and one day, you must feel this country as your own. This country will
be a future home land for your offspring. It is better that you develop kinship
with the people of this land. Tomorrow
is always better than Today.”
“
Yes, I remember it very well. It is very true but everybody cannot be so
far-sighted.”
During
the first week, I felt somewhat bored. Bha ji returned home at six in the
evening everyday and children at half past three. Immediately after their
arrival, they probed the fridge and then cling to the tv or went to their own
rooms above. I would try to mix-up with them, but they would not show any
inclination. As such, in spite of their appearance at home, I felt all alone.
I,
always, impatiently, waited for the week-end because on that day, Bha ji took me
for an outing somewhere or the other. He took me sometimes to visit some friend
or relative and at other times to see some new places. Once it was the day of
Sunday, slightly warm and sunny. Though it was the month of June, the sunshine
was like that of February in India. Bha ji and his wife resolved to show me the
seaside. I was very happy. I had never seen the sea before like most other
people in Punjab. I had seen the sea in the films only and once I had portrayed
the sea beach in one of my stories on the basis of it. But this Sunday, I was
going to see the real sea. We were going to be accompanied by Subhash and his
family. Bha ji and Subhash were fast friends. Such friendship can last only if
you think alike and have common characteristics.
We
reached the seaside after a journey of an hour or little more by cars. The waves
of the blue water were advancing towards the beach as if to say ‘welcome’ to
the visitors. The children of our two families began to indulge in fun and
frolic. My sister-in-law and Subhash’s wife also followed the suit. When the
children grow up, the mothers behave like this. Then they do not feel the need
of following their husbands. We, three persons, began to walk along the beach.
To me, it seemed as if there were some festival of the white people. Bha ji was
telling me the merits of the sea water that if we take a bath in it, our bodies
absorb several minerals through the pores.
“
Then you must be coming to this place after every couple of months ?” I asked.
“No
my friend, since we came to England, we have come here perhaps for the second
time and this time only because of you. We do not have that much of leisure and
it is also a matter of interest,” Subhash tried to explain me“
“Just
as, living among the English people, we have not been able to mix up with them
socially, in the same way living beside the sea, we have remained far away from
it,” said Bha ji casting a glance over the sea.
The
water kept advancing towards us and people sitting on the beach, were shifting
their places and drifting towards the bank. Some beautiful ladies who had put
off their braziers and were lying prone on the sand got up and covering their
breasts with towels moved far away when water advanced under them, and again lay
on the sand at some distance. An Indian woman was bathing with her sari on and
it was sticking so tightly to her body that despite the sari, she looked
bare-bodied.
“Well
friends, we, too, must enjoy little swimming.”
Bha Ji seemed curious to play with the sea water.
“Leave
it, having never ever taken any swimming lessons, I am scared and also feel
somewhat shy.” Subhash expressed a mode of double mindedness.
In
the meanwhile, a white woman looking like a chiselled statue past beside us and
began to advance ahead. Her waxen body, due to massage and shun shine, wore a
hue of copper.
“Look
how fond are these women of keeping their bodies in shape,” staring at her
body, said Bha ji.
“Really,
her body did not have an extra ounce of fat.”
“Here,
look at our women; they have their stomachs like swollen mass of dough, and
loose flesh are hanging,” said Subhash comparatively.
“The
state of our men also is the same as compared to our women. That’s why we feel
shy to take off our clothes.” Bha ji paused a little and then, pointing to an
Indian man sitting cross-legged, he said, “Look at that man displaying a
pitcher like abdomen, as if he were holding a big watermelon on his thighs. Does
not he look like Buddha?”
“Hay,
we do not look that much ugly; come on, come out of your clothes. OK? I am not
going to ask you too frequently.”
They
both jumped into the water. I, too, wanted to follow them, but felt shy because
of long knickers. They tried very hard to drag me but pretending to be cold, I
kept standing at a distance.
After
half an hour, they came out and Bha ji said “Its really a delectable
experience and we used to fight shy for nothing.”
“A
negative approach towards life or you may call it excessive inferiority complex
is not a good thing or healthy attitude. What additional merits have these white
people as compared with us, except the white skin?”
When
we looked at the watch, it was already four o’ clock. Subhash, feeling
thirsty, expressed a desire for cold beer. Then Bha ji suggested that after
reaching home we would drink at the neighbouring pub.
Travelling
back, I felt, hearing the conversation, that Bha ji’s grievance had been
removed to a great extent. He displayed neither a shade of depression nor that
of mental loneliness. Rather it seemed that he was feeling his tree of life to
strike roots in the soil of this environment. His soul seemed to be an age-mate
of his children.
Having
been home we, three, reached the pub near a park. We had hardly got our glasses
filled and taken seats at a table, when a group of mischievous looking white men
came and deliberately sat beside us with an intention to make trouble. That was
apparent from their movements.
After
sometime, one of them said, “Got light?”
“Sorry,
we don’t smoke …,” replied Subhash briefly.
“But
you do drink….!” And they started laughing aloud.
In
the meanwhile a white man, wearing a red t-shirt belched aloud and asked Subhash
“Where you come from ?”
“Rainham,”
again Subhash gave a reply.
At
this, all of them began to laugh again.
That
man wearing a cunning smile on his face, repeated his question, “I mean, what
country you come from?”
“Lets
leave it; they are not ignorant of it. The rascals are bent upon making trouble
for nothing. Better we go home and drink there. Also we are tired today,”
saying this Bha ji got up and we two followed him.
Returning
home, Bha Ji poured big pegs of whiskey and then started recounting the same
incident to his wife.
“I
always tell you to drink at home, if you must.
What is there in pubs and clubs ?”retorted his wife hearing the
episode.
“
Daddy, you were three and all young and fit. Why didn’t you give them a few
blows ?” said Pappu.
“You
scoundrel, is it not enough that we are back home safe and sound, and you have
not been obliged to carry us home ?”
“Other
thing, we thought that we have to show the kew garden to your uncle tomorrow;
that’s why we wanted to remain wholesome till tomorrow,” Subhash shared a
joke like conversation with Pappu.
Though,
I had learnt many things about England as compared with the past, but every day
there was something new for me to learn. What this garden is, I was curious to
know. At length I asked Bha ji what this kew garden meant ?
“This
garden contains flowers, plants and trees which have been brought from foreign
lands, not adapted to English climate.”
“But
then how are they growing or planting them here ?” I wondered.
“They
have built huge glass-houses at a very high cost. The plants receive the
sunshine and humidity created through steam pipes. In this artificial weather,
they can grow
tropical
plants in this man-made climate according to the need and nature of the plants.
Many trees looking like mangoes, are made to maintain their existence but do not
seem to be flourishing or fruiting as in their natural lands.”
In
the evening, I noticed that Bha ji had not intoxicated; yet consuming the
whiskey from his glass, he resumed, “ In this country, you may come across
several other persons like me and Subhash. We are, all, trees of the Kew Garden.
We have tried hard to strike our roots in this soil and environment, but feel as
if we are rootless to some extent. May be because of alien roots ! Sometime I
feel, we merely living or existing physically or you may say materially in this
land, but actually, mentally and emotionally we reside back home. Story of our
children, like Renu, Pappu or Simmi is entirely different,” he gulped the
whole peg in one go and then shifting his pointed finger from children towards
me, he resumed, “No matter, we could not learn to strike our roots in this
foreign climate or environment; our children will. With the time, we may be able
to, perhaps one day …..changing with the time and
circumstances…………matching the lifestyle and attitude with our offspring.
Now, we should accept this reality that our children will never ever go back to
the lands of their forefathers. And it is equally true that this is their future
homeland.”
“It’s
a fact. History witnesses, “ said Subhash.
Assuming
their state of intoxication, ladies asked from the kitchen “Shall we start
serving dinner now ?”
“Just
about fifteen minutes. Only last one,” said Bha Ji.
“How
about you ? After retirement, would you like to return or to stay here with
children ?” I could not help asking.
“Well
! to me, it seems more and more people like us and you, in near future, will
make UK their homeland and we are no exception. Of course, we also, are going to
live and die here,”
“Bha
ji, but, what will happen to your agricultural land and that beautiful house
?” I asked worriedly.
“There,
We will leave everything to you and for you and your family. That home of ours,
will no more than a holiday home for us.”
Person
residing inside Bha ji made me very emotional. My eyes watered with reverence.
Simultaneously, a sense of meanness pleased me inside as if I have won a
lottery.
Dinner
was being laid on the table. So much was running in my mind. The very generous
nature and lively attitude of Bha Ji, my elder brother, made me wonder beyond
expectations.
Part 5
Across the Breakwater
When
Bha Ji had given me this bad news about the death of Bhushan’s wife, I was
overwhelmed by a sudden emotional stress. His wife Krishna was really a great
person. During my second visit, I had been invited three times to their house
along with Bha Ji and his family.
Apart
from consoling over the phone, nothing I could do about it. I kept thinking
about Bhushan, his home life without his wife and his future! And for a long
time I had been thinking about his only daughter Nikki. For her, a home can’t
be the same again, without a mother. No doubt Bhushan loves her so much, yet,
she will be yearning for motherly affection and warmth.
No
one can fill the blankness of their innermost world.
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Life
and home!
How
deeply these two words are inner-related! If there is a home, there is a life.
And if there is life, there is home. Actually, without home, there is no home
life.
Like
body and soul, these two words can’t be free and independent of each other.
Isolated from each other, they are likely to lose their meanings.
‘What
a strange phenomenon the home is!’ Bhushan went on thinking.
In
order to live, a man badly needs a home. In fact, life is incomplete without it.
He felt as if his home had been reduced just to four walls only. Merely a house,
no longer a home! An innocent sigh escaped from his lips.
There
are such homes that attract inhabitants from outside. And some others can be
just the reverse of it.
Time
kept elapsing unnoticed.
Bhushan
had reared a dream of rehabilitation with the presence of Renu, the home that
had devastated by his wife Krishna’s death. But now, this dream seemed to be
shattering.
After
finishing the kitchen chores, Renu, instead of coming into the lounge, sat in a
chair in the balcony. Sitting near the aquarium, Bhushan felt as if Renu
deliberately wanted to sit away from him. It seemed to him as though Renu and
he, were two parallel lines that could never and at no point meet. By chance,
his attention was attracted towards the gold fish.
Initially,
this tank had several fish. But then only three golden ones were left. After a
short while, two of them died and only this one survived. Bhuahan had named it
‘Soan Pari’ means golden elf.
Whenever
he woke up in the morning, he felt tempted to see Soan Pari. He felt like
observing how it moved about, whether it was sleeping or awake. But he lost
interest in it in no time, because day by day, Soan Pari followed the same
routine. Bhushan fed it and after taking the feed, it went around the aquarium.
Sometimes, it appeared well-off and at other times, it eemed as if it were to
breathe its last.
There
was a difference of twenty years between the ages of Bhushan and Renu, and the
former was fully conscious of it. He knew that it was like a gap of one
generation. It was not a matter of physical relationship; a person’s
lifestyle, temperament, modes of life has also their importance.
When
Renu had nothing to do, she would often sit near the window and look outside or
at Soan Pari. The circle of her social interaction was very limited or she had
deliberately kept it so. Otherwise also, she was a women of reticent nature.
Bhushan
noticed that Renu had been gazing outside for long. He thought that she might be
trying to look for the ebb and flow of life in the crowed of people moving on
the roads. But soon, when he observed from close quarters, he noticed that Renu
was looking outside but seeing nothing, lost in some other world. She was just
staring in the space as though her open eyes were sightless.
Since
Nikki had gone to university, Renu had appeared more depressed. Even though
Nikki was the daughter of her elder sister, Renu has always considered her to be
her own, a friend like daughter.
Whenever
Bhushan thought honestly, he felt that he was responsible for ruining Renu’s
life. Compelled by his sisters, he remarried. His sisters had persuaded Renu’s
parents for the sake of Nikki’s future. Bhushan was also in the know of the
fact that Renu was in love with Ashok. At length giving way to everybody’s
pressure, he had agreed to marry Renu, his sister-in-law, thinking himself to be
guiltless in a way.
When
in a society, a daughter’s marriage becomes a financial burden, the parents
seldom heed their daughter’s choice if they can marry her off without a cost.
Compromises regarding daughters marriages were common and are still there.
It
is what had happened with Renu. Who would to care to know what she wanted? No
one ever cared for her emotions choice. At that time, protests and anger had
raised their head inside her. Her sentiments had blazed in flames. Her thoughts
had raged in storms. Her aspirations had wailed causing commotions in her mind.
But now, all this had become a tale of her past--------regrets of the bygone
times which sometimes, pursue the present.
Many
a times, Bhushan felt that Renu and him, though residing under the same roof,
were living apart, lonesome in their own worlds. He felt that their bedroom was
partitioned with an invisible wall and occasionally, he saw images of Ashok’s
existence beyond this wall.
Whenever
they felt a craving in their bodies or a heat in blood, sooner their hands
advanced for physical contact, Renu would at once put off the light. On Renu’s
doing so, Bhushan felt as if Renu had hung a curtain between their bodies.
Bhushan,s thought of losing himself in the beautiful body of Renu would change
its course. His hands advanced for physical contact would retreat and he would
sink in sadness. He felt as though Renu were trying to seek Ashok within from
his body in darkness.
It
was raining outside; not raining, just drizzling. While conversing, they felt
their bodies to be steaming hot, as if they were slightly feverish with high
temperature. It was like rising of a strange wave, producing tides. Soon the
hand of Renu advanced towards the bed switch, the room was enveloped in
darkness. The existence of visible articles in the room eliminated. Bhushan’s
hand stopped short while advancing to switch the light on again. Why? He
didn’t know! He disliked darkness.
That
night, very seriously, Bhushan had been
thinking about Renu. He knew fully well that Ashok still loves her. Perhaps that
is why he had given Renu the freedom of correspondence and phone calls. By this
liberty, Bhushan had risen in Renu’s estimation.
One
day, Renu threw out all the artificial plants and creepers and replaced with
real ones. In the grandeur of these plants, she was feeling a strange sort of
delight. A sense of beauty and colours of natural environment had been created
among concrete and plastic milieu. For a long time, sitting among these plants,
she cherished a sense of gratification.
The
following day, Bhushan, while sitting near the plants was struck by a
question------Why should Renu has done it?
Having
seen plants so placed in some house or having got tired of life within this
confinement?
He
would think that existence governed by a routine or habit was no life. It can be
boring and changeless, as every night were a repetition of the previous evening
and in the same way, every morning a repetition of the previous night.
When
a person gets used to living in
prison, the urge for a free life in him starts fading out. After all, life is to
be ravished and cherished, to love and to be loved by establishing a bond of
kinship with society. If Renu had not called him for the breakfast, God knows
how long he would have remained lost in such reflections.
After
the breakfast, he sat close to the aquarium. The Soan Pari had gone about
swimming from side to side, bottom to top, and then again, top to bottom. The
round and black eyes of Soan Pari seemed to stare at him. For some time, he felt
as if the fish yearned to get out of this limited circle and spread into the
vastness of the ocean. The next moment, he felt as though it was happy and
secure in this aquarium only.
Bhushan
had heartfelt compassion for Renu and wanted to see her happy in every respect.
He was always anxious lest she should fall into depression. If he ever talked of
consulting a doctor, Renu would retort, “What’s wrong with me? Am I not a
normal person? I am happy and have nothing like depression. Why do you worry on
my account just for nothing?”
After
Nikki had left for university, Bhushan had started trying to peep into Renu’s
mind. Renu’s keeping suppressed and oppressed was becoming unbearable for him,
because his own happiness was also linked with that of Renu. They were only a
pair of creaturesin this flat. For a long time now, the walls of this flat had
not heard words quivering with love and roars of laughter. If ever some voice
travelled into these walls, it was that of the television.
Occasionally,
Bhushan thought of changing the environment. On some pretext or the other, he
touched the subject of going on a holiday. To start with, Renu showed no
interest. If at all, she went on a holiday, on return she would appear more
depressed and upset. He would try to probe what deficiency made Renu unhappy,
why she seemed quiet and depressed? This is the age to be cheerful, to enjoy
life, to realize one’s urges and to deck and don. But, she is hardly fond of
wearing jewellery, make up or fashionable garments. There must be, in this
house, some sort of emptiness which cannot be filled; or something seems to have
extinguished inside her. He would keep debating in his mind, lying in the bed.
It
happened many times, that Bhushan wanted to watch some documentary and Renu
desired to see some sort of light entertainment. In such a situation, they would
sit in different rooms watching different channels. An internal bond between
them would seem snapped. Bhushan was forbidden to consume fried and richly
salted or spiced dishes, but on the contrary, Renu had no such restriction.
Thus, dinning on the same table, they could not relish the same food. Many such
small or you may call big things, had ceased to be common between them.
Many
times, Bhushan thought that it was necessary for a woman to be a mother. Without
motherhood, a woman’s life is incomplete. If Renu, he argued with himself, had
an issue from her own womb, her life would have been different and happier, of
course more gratified. But whenever he hinted at it, Renu replied, “What do
you mean by ‘my issue? Nikki too, is my daughter. I alone, am her mother. Why
should I go about consulting doctors?”
The
sun beams were adding to the sheen of the clean and polished leaves of the
rubber plant. Looking towards the balcony, Bhushan noticed that Renu was sitting
in the chair gazing outside. Then his attention was diverted towards the
aquarium. The Soan Pari was swimming about in its usual routine. It held his
attention for quite a long time. For a moment, he looked towards Renu and then,
towards Soan Pari. “What’s this life? Aimless and meaningless!” he thought
in himself.
For
a short while, he kept standing in the lounge, lost in himself and self-centred,
seeming caught in some problem. He felt that he had been carrying some burden on
his mind for a long time and now it was becoming unbearable for him and beyond.
He wanted to arrive at some decision without any delay. He had resolved to throw
away that burden somehow or the other for the sake of his own peace of mind.
After
sometime, he reoccupied his place and felt like setting the Soan Pari free. But,
will it be able to bear the brunt of waves of the sea? It has been accustomed to
living in this limited space. The chain of his thoughts continued. Possibly, it
may feel frightened to start with. But then, going across the breakwater, it
will adapt itself to the tides of waters and expend its entire energy to live
and enjoy life, not just to maintain existence.
He had not much knowledge about the fish, yet he felt as if he had discovered the solution of his problem. Very fondly, he called Renu to himself. She came and sat closely smilingly. For an instant he looked into her eyes and then his sight travelled across the lounge occupied with domestic articles. Renu was anxious to hear the words to be uttered from his lips. But all the words, he had gathered with courage, suddenly slipped away from the fist of his thoughts. What had resolved upon, he could not say. Now, he was feeling as if he, himself, had been caught in the breakwater of the ocean of life
rqn rIhl jI,
mYN jpu jI bfry lyK Byj irhF hF.dUjy dubfrf ByjFgf.mYnUM kMipAUtr dI
bhuqI jfxkfrI nhIN hY.
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jpu jI aqy mUl mMqr
jpu jI sfihb inrol gurU nfnk dyv jI dI bfxI hY jF
ies ivwc kuwJ bfxI iksy hor gurU dI vI sLfiml hY ? ieqhfskfrF ivwc BfvyN ies gwl
bfry QoVf mwq Byd hY pr zf: qfrn isMG anusfr jpu jI dI rcnf krqfr pur ivKy rcI
geI dwisaf igaf hY.KLYr, iewQy ies df ivsLlysLx krn dI loV nhIN BfsdI.
pihlIaF rcIaF geIaF ikrqF `coN keI vfr, bfad ivwc
iksy isrjk dI isrjxf ivwc iKLaflF df myl Kf jfxf suBfvk hY ijs qrHF kbIr jI qoN
( avil alhu nUru Aupieaf…[) pihlF vI mYN iksy BfrqI AurdU sLfier df isLar
piVHaf sI “……eyk ml, eyk cfm, eyk gUdf ; eyk nUr sy jg Aupjf kOn bRhm, kOn
sLUdf” ? kuwJ ies qrHF dy alPLfjL sn.ieh pusqk mYN lgpg qIh sfl pihlF ieMzIaf
afPs lfiebRyrI ivwcoN ilaf ky pVHI sI.hux qF mYnUM iesdf nF qwk vI Xfd nhIN
hY.kihx df Bfv hY ik nvyN sLfierF dIaF rcnfvF ivwc, purfxy sLfierF df pRBfv afm
vyKx nUM iml jFdf hY.
keI vfr vwKrI sLbdfvlI, sLYlI jF sLbd joVF qoN
aMdfjLf lgfieaf jf skdf hY ik sMBv hY ieh rcnf iksy hor dI hovy.iksy nUM isafrI
pfAux dI afdq huMdI hY qy iksy nUM ibhfrI.koeI “ibmfrI” ilKdf hY qy koeI “
bImfrI”.iesy qrHF koeI “ibgfnf” ilKdf hY qy koeI “bygfnf”.
jpu jI dI bfxI pRsLn-Auqwr dI qrqIb nfl ilKI hoeI
jfpdI hY.ho skdf sLfied ieh gurU nfnk dyv jI ny afpxI Aumr dy 56vyN aqy 66vyN
virHaF dy ivckfr ilKI hovy.iewk jfqI ikafs hY.gLlq vI ho skdf hY, koeI dfavf
nhIN. ies bfxI ivwcoN pRikrqk suhj aqy suMdrqf df aks sfP idKfeI idMdf hY.
jpu , jfp jF ismrn smarQI sLbd hn.smfDI vyly ieh
ikiraF, mn dI iekfgrqf leI bVI shfeI iswD huMdI hY.jpu jF ismrn sLbdF df duhrfE
hY.ieh duhrfE hI asl ivwc ismrn hY.ismrn df Bfv hY, Aus rwbI sLkqI nfl aByd ho
jfxf.Ausdy inXmF anusfr jIAuxf.jfpdY ieh bfxI aMimRq vyly jpx leI rcI geI
hY.hyTlI quk ies gwl df pRmfx hY.
aMimRq vylf scu nfAu vizafeI vIcfru ]
ies vyly mn nUM vDyry iekfgr rwiKaf jf skdf
hY.nvyN idn df sLuBfrMB krn leI vfqfvrx dI qfjLgI iewk ivsLysL afqimk aMnd
bKLsLdI hY.ijs smyN guru nfnk dyv jI ny jpu jI dI rcnf kIqI, ieAuN jfpdY iksy
idhfqI ielfky dy vfqfvrx ivwc ivcridaF kIqI hovy! AuMj vI Aus vyly idhfqI jIvn
mly-JfVIaF, ndI-nfilaF aqy ZwkIaF-jMglF dI pRikrqk suMdrqf nfl Biraf hoieaf
huMdf sI.ajoky smyN vFg sVkF, sLihrF qy mhFngrF dy sLor-sLrfby aqy pRdUsLx qoN
bicaf hoieaf sI.
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mMqr : mMqr iewk, do jF iqMn awKrF df ho skdf hY.ieh
pMjF df vI ho skdf hY.jpu, mMqr jpx dI hI iewk jugq hY.mMqr gurU vloN bKLisLaf
hoieaf sLbd hY.ieh sLbd hI igafn hY.iewk qrHF nfl jpu jI dI sfrI bfxI hI mMqr
hY.mMqrF dIaF iksmF ho skdIaF hn ijvyN bIj mMqr, mUl mMqr, gur mMqr, nfm mMqr qy
mhF mMqr.ienHF df ijLkr afm imldf hY.
bIj aqy mUl mMqr: jpu jI ivwc ‘ 1 E’ bIj
mMqr hY. ieh ‘Em’ df hI dUjf nF hY ijvyN rwb, rfm, awlf qy vfihgurU iewko hI
dYvI-sLkqI dy nF hn.mUl mMqr sfry mMqrF df aDfr mMinaF jFdf hY.ies krky
‘siqnfm qoN gurpRsfid’ qwk sfrf mUl mMqr hI hY.gurbfxI ivwc ieh bhuq vfr
afAuNdf hY.
gur mMqr:- iswK siBafcfr ivwc ‘vfihgurU’ sLbd nUM gur
mMqr ikhf jFdf hY.‘vfihgurU’ do sLbdF df sLbd-joV hY.vfhu jF vfih jmF gurU
Bfv bhuq awCf guru jI; bilhfry jfeIey guru jI, vfhu gurU jI!
nfm mMqr :- siqnfm hI nfm mMqr hY.Ausdf nfm hI swcf
hY.swc hI Ausdf nfm hY.Auh hI sfrI isRsLtI df isrjk hY.Ausdf ismrn krnf sfzf
PLrjL hY.Ausdf vfs sfzy aMdr vI hY aqy bfhr vI.
DrqIaF, sUrj,qfry aqy hor gRih, sB Ausdy inXmF
anusfr hI pRkrmf kr rhy hn.ies DrqI df sfrf jIvn Aus swc nfl hI sMbMiDq hY.ieh
swc koeI nvF nhIN. ieh afid qoN hY aqy aMq qwk rhygf.gurU nfnk jI afKdy hn:
afid swcu jugfid swc]hY BI swcu nfnk hosI BI swcu]
mhF mMqr :-mhF mMqr bfry vwKo-vwKry ivdvfnF dIaF awz-awz
rfvF hn.keI mUl mMqr nUM hI mhF mMqr afKdy hn.qy koeI ies bfxI dy pihly 24 sLbdF
dy sMgRih nUM mhF mMqr imwQdf hY.pr BfeI kfnH isMG dy mhfn kosL anusfr ‘siqnfm
vfihgurU’ mhF mMqr hY.bhuqf iswK jgq iesy nfl sihmq pRqIq huMdf hY.
mMqr koeI vI hovy, mksd iewko hY.nfm vwKry ho
skdy hn.sfry hI mMqr iewk-dUjy sMbMiDq hn.isRsLtI dy jIvF vFg .mMqr iewk ivDI hY
jo gurU rfhIN iswKxI pYNdI hY.isrP Aus rwbI
sLkqI dy nUr dI iewk ikrn hfisl krn leI.afpxy aMdrlI sLkqI qoN jfxU hox
leI.Aus avsQf qwk phuMcx leI ijwQy sfry duwKF-klysLF df nfsL ho jFdf hY.afqimk
anMd dI pfRpqI huMdI hY ijvyN gurU arjn dyv jI PurmfAuNdy hn:
duKu klys n BAu ibafpY gurmMqR ihrdY hoie]
gurU nfnk aqy iswK Drm:iswK Drm iewk jIvn jfc
hY.ies Drm df dr hr iewk leI KulHf hY cfhy Auh iksy vI iPrky, jLfq, nsl, rMg jF
kOm nfl sMbMiDq hovy.ieh krm-kFzF aqy aMD ivsLvfs dy rIqI-irvfjLF qoN Ault sfdgI,
brfbrqf, eImfndfrI, imhnq, muhwbq, sihXog aqy sdBfvnf df Drm hY.
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ieh
sfnUM hukm mMnidaF, hr vkq cVHdIaF klF ivwc aqy afsLfvfdI rihx leI pyRrdf
hY.iswK Drm muqfibk ijLMdgI dwuK-suwK vMzfAux aqy ipafr vMzx leI hY.ies ivwc
nPLrq aqy inrfsLf leI koeI QF nhIN hY.iensfn dy krm aqy aml hI AusdI iksmq GVdy
hn.ies ivwc iwewko sLkqI anusfr jIAux qy jLor idwqf igaf hY.Auh sLkqI ijhVI ies
isRsLtI nUM clf rhI hY.iehI vfihgurU hY.ieho rwb hY.iesdy inXm atwl hn, rhy hn
aqy rihxgy!
iswK kdy vI iksy df mfVf nhIN socdf.jy socygf qF
Auh iswK nhIN ho skdf, iswK dy Bys ivwc aiswK hovygf.inrvYr hox kfrx hI AusnUM
iksy df zr nhIN huMdf.Auh mUrqI, pwQr jF ilMg pUjf vrgy pKMzF aqy AUc-nIc df
ivroDI huMdf hY.Aus leI jLfq-pfq koeI mhwqv nhIN rwKdI, sB lok brfbr huMdy hn.
jLfq-pfq afrIan lokF dI kfZ hY.cfr jmfqF df
vrgIkrx krky, bRfhmxf dI (ivhlV) AuwcI sLRyxI, ikrqI-mjLdUrF dI nIvIN aqy hYrfnI
dI gwl ieh ik sdIaF bfd vI asIN smfjk qOr qy ies bMDn qoN mukq nhIN ho sky.guru
nfnk dyv ny qF sLUq-sLfq dy bMDn qoV ky ieh pRcfr kIqf ik iksy df ikwqf koeI vI
hovy, ieh Xogqf qy aDfrq hoxf cfhIdf hY nf ik iksy dI jLfq Auwpr.koeI JfVU Pyry,
kfsLq kry, jwuqIaF sIvyN jF vpfr kry, hr qrHF dI ikrq df brfbr siqkfr hoxf
cfhIdf hY.aOrq aqy mrd do kudrqI jLmfqF hn.pr gurU nfnk jI ny dohF iDrF nUM
smfijk qOr qy brfbr drjf idwqf hY.ieslfm ivwc aOrqF leI prdy (burkf) vrgIaF
pfbMDIaF hn. iesy qrHF iswK Drm ivwc vI sn.ijvyN GuMz kwZxf, dohry duwpty aqy
Gwgry afid.smyN nfl soc vI bdldI rihMdI hY.awDI sdI bfad ieh sB kuwJ bdl igaf hY
pr jLfq-pfq, AUc-nIc aqy sLUq-sLfq hfly vI brkrfr hY.sLfied ieh sfzy aKOqI DrmF
dI vjHf kfrx hovy!
jpu jI dIaF pihlIaF swq pfAuVIaF
df sfr
pRmfqmf df ismrn vwKo-vwKry nfvF nfl kIqf jf skdf
hY pr Auh rwbI sLkqI iewko hI hY.ieh swcfeI sdIvI hY . ies nUM JuTlfieaf nhIN jf
skdf .sfrI isRsLtI df rcnhfr mOq rihq hY.AusnUM nf iksy df KLOP hY qy nf hI iksy
nfl vYr.pRikrqI nUM iksy df zr ho vI nhIN skdf. kudrq qF sdf hI inrvYr huMdI hY.
jd pRmfqmf df koeI srUp nhIN, akfr nhIN qF iPr
jnm-mrx df suafl hIN nhIN pYdf ho skdf! ieh sB guru dI ikrpf hY.Aus kudrqI igafn
df cfnx.mnuwK dy aMdr aqy ierd-igrd iesy sLkqI dI axidsdI hoNd hY.inrvYr nUM BYa
iksdf ? ijsdf vYrI hI koeI nhIN Aus nUM zr kfhdf ?
mnuwK df PLrjL hY ik Auh Aus rwbI sLkqI df ismrn
kry. Auhdy inXmf dy bfhr nf jfvy Bfv kudrq nfl iewk sur rhy. ieh swcfeI qF
afid-jugfid qoN svIkfrI jFdI rhI hY.qy sdf ievyN hI prvfnI jfvygI.gurU nfnk dyv
jI ny kdurqI asUlF df inaMqrx krn bfd hI ies swc bfry hfmI BrI hY.
inry krm-kFz sfnUM koeI syD nhIN dy skdy. ikMnf
soco, mon Dfro jF smfDI lfvo. vrq rwKo jF hor isafxpF vrqo; ieh kudrq nfl aByd
hox leI kfPI nhIN hn.sB qoN pihlI gwl hY, rwbI inXmf anusfr afpxy afp nUM Zflxf.
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swc nfl juVn leI, JUT nfloN tuwtxf lfjLmI
hY.iehnF dohF nUM jIvn dy smFqr nhIN rwiKaf jf skdf. JUT dI kMD Zf ky hI swc dI
AusfrI kIqI jf skdI hY. rwbI hukm muqfibk soc AusfrnI sLurU kridaF hI swc df
igafn hoxf sLurU ho jFdf hY.dyhDfrI gurU df hukm jLubfn rfhIN suixaf jf skdf hY,
awKrF rfhIN piVHaf jf skdf hY ijvyN asIN gurbfxI pVHdy hF pr rwbI hukm isrP
mihsUisaf hI jf skdf hY.gRihx kIqf jf skdf hY, smiJaf jf skdf hY.awj klH
ivigafink shfieqf ies nUM smJxf hor vI sOKf ho igaf hY.ies rwbI hukm nUM Bfxf vI
afiKaf jFdf hY.
sfrI isRsLtI df jIvn ies rwbI hukm anusfr hI cl
ihf hY. Bfxy nUM mMnx ivwc hI mnuwK dI vizafeI hY.jo Bfxy nUM svIkfrygf nhIN,
duwK Bogygf.jo hukm mMndf hY, Aus qy kudrq dI bKLsLs smJo ikAuNik afKr hoxf qF
sB kuwJ kudrqI inXmF muqfibk hI hY. hukm qoN bfhr rih ky koeI bMdf sPl nhIN ho
skdf.kudrq (rwb) nfl aByd ho ky hI ies hukm df Byd pfieaf jf skdf hY.mnwuK dI
iPr hAUmY vI mr jFdI hY.ies pRikRaf `coN lMG ky bMdf inrhMkfr, inrBEu qy inrvYr
ho jFdf hY.
Aus rwbI sLkqI dI mihmf bVy ivdvfnF ny afpo-afpxy
ZMgF nfl kIqI hY. keI vfr mMijLl sB dI iewko huMdI hY pr vwK-vwK mfrg apxf ky
Btkx aqy AulJxf pYdf kr leIaF jFdIaF hn.hukm iewk DrU qfry vFg hY jo rfq dy
hnyry ivwc vI syD idMdf hY. afs qy AumId df aihsfs idMdf hY.
smyN-smyN ijhVy vI guxI igafnI hoey hn, hr iewk
ny Ausy dy gux gfey hn hflF ik nf iksy ny Aus nUM vyiKaf hY qy nf hI suixaf
hY.iesy qrHF koeI AusdIaF dfqF df ijLkr krdf hY. koeI krmF dIaF vizafeIaF df
kQn.Aus pRmfqmf df pUrx igafn hfisl krnf bVf aOKf hY.Aupjxf qy imt jfxf, ieh
kudrq df krm hY.hr koeI afKr mrn vfsqy hI jnm lYNdf hY.DrqI qy kuwJ vI sdIvI
nhIN rihMdf.sdIvI qF iewk AuhI sLkqI hY ijs nUM asIN vfihgurU dy nF nfl Xfd krdy
hF.ies Byd nUM jo jfx igaf Ausny sB kuwJ pf ilaf.jo nhIN jfx skdf, ivrvf rih
jfvygf.Bfxy ivwc rih ky jIAux vfly bMdy nUM kudrqI hI KusLI nsIb huMdI rhygI.
ieh gwl Xfd rwKxI cfhIdI hY.
pRmfqmf ijsny dunIaF dI isrjxf kIqI hY, isrP iewk
hY aqy ieho swcfeI hY. DrqI dy sfry jIvF dIaF loVF, Auh ibn mMgy hI pUrIaF krdf
hY.sfzf lflcI mn iPr vI nhIN Brdf. kudrqI inXmF dI pflxf krn vwl afKr sfzf vI qF
koeI Xogdfn bxdf hI hY.ikhVI gwl jF krm krIey, ijs nfl asIN mohy jfeIey ! ijhVy
bMdy qVksfr AuwT ky idhfqI jIvn sLurU krdy hn, Auh pRmfqmf dI vizafeI socdy hn
ikAuNik aimRq vyly mnuwK kudrq dy bhuq njLdIk huMdf hY.ijLMdgI ivwc sfzIaF
lflsfvF duwKF nUM jnm idMdIaF hn aqy ienFH qoN Cutkfrf pfAux leI, igafn dy mfrg
dI loV hY jo kudrq dI imhr sdkf hI iml skdf hY.ijLMdgI Aus rwbI sLkqI dy hukm dI
gulfm hY, ieh swcfeI mno ivsfrnI nhIN cfhIdI.
Aus rwb df nf koeI srUp hY. nf koeI Aus nUM Qfpx
vflf. Aus dy rUp df qswvr nhIN kIqf jf skdf. sfDU, sMqF, avqfrF jF hor lokF vFg,
Aus nMU vyiKaf nhIN jf skdf pr Aus dy bRihmMzI psfry bfry icMqn kIqf jf skdf
hY.soc nUM ies rihs vwl kyNdrq krnf mfx vflI gwl hY ikAuNik ienHF BydF dI prq dr
prq jfxkfrI hI igafn dy KLjLfny dI kuMjI hY. ies
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bfry sMvfd rcfAux aqy sqsMg krn nfl, jIvn dy bhuq
sfry pihlUaF `coN hnyrf dUr ho skdf hY qy dunIafvI ksLtF qoN mukqI pfeI jf skdI
hY.
bfxI AupdysL hY. gurbfxI igafn hY.igafn gurU qoN
ibnf hfisl nhIN kIqf jf skdf. mnuwK Auwpr kudrq dI imhr hY. sfzy kol awKr hn. jy
sfzy kol ieh awKr nf huMdy qF asIN vI psLUaF smfn hoxf sI.awKr nf huMdy qF
gurbfxI vI nhIN sI hoxI.ies krky nfid (anfhd), vyd, sB gurbfxI hY.ieho igafn hY.
isLv, ivsLnUM, bRhmf, pfrvqI, lCmI qy surwsqI; sB igafn dy hI pRqIk hn.gurbfxI
sdIaF purfxI rcnf hY.pr bfkI gRMQF dy mukfbly bVI afDuink.Aus pRmfqmf dy guxF
bfry jfnxf, afKxf sOKI gwl nhIN hY. Ausdy gux apfr hn.pr gurbfxI anusfr sfzy
sBnf ivwc, Ausy iewk rwb df hI pRkfsL hY. mnuwK dy aMdrlf zr boldf hY ik jo sB
df dfqf hY, ikqy myN Aus nUM Buwl nf jfvF. Aus nUM ismrdf rhF ikAuNik rwb qF
iksy nUM nhIN ivsfrdf. Auh qF pwQrF ivcly kIt-pqMgF df vI iKafl rwKdf hY. cfhy
koeI imwtI hyT hovy, cfhy pfxI aMdr, Aus nUM sB dy afhfr df iPkr hY. ieh qF
mnuwK hI hY jo pfxI aMdr pRdUsLx pYdf krky, pfxI ivcly jIvF dI hwiqaf df kfrx
bxdf hY.rwb qF AunHF df pflxhfr hY .Auh iksy jIv nUM ikvyN ivsfr skdf hY ?
qIrQF ivwc iesLnfn krn df Enf hI lfB hY ijMNnf
afpxy Gr dy guslKfny ivwc nhfAux df.srIr dI sPfeI rwKxI Bfxy anusfr hY .kudrqI
inXm dy pflx vFg ! pr iksy Kfs Pl dI pRfpqI dy lflc vjoN, iksy ivsLysL qIrQ dI
Xfqrf krnI, Bfxy qoN Ault jfxf hY. gurbfxI ikqy vI Bfxy qoN Ault jfx dI gwl nhIN
krdI .asIN jo hfisl krnf hY, afpxy krmF rfhIN krnf hY. amlF rfhIN krnf
hY.gurbfxI (gurF dI iswiKaf) bVf igafn idMdI hY.ies leI qIrQF qy Btkxf iblkul
byloVf aqy byarQf hY. Aus pRmfqmf dy igafn rUpI jl nfl mn dI mYl (hnyrf) dUr krn
df jqn krnf, hukm anusfr clxf hY.ieh gurU nfnk dyv jI df AupdysL hY.
hy afdm jy Blf qyrI Aumr cfr Xug dI jF ies qoN vI
hor ds guxf vwD ho jfvy aqy dysL-ivdysL qyry nF dy crcy hox. sfry qyry hwk `c
hox.nyk-nfmI df qUM js KwtyN. pr jy hukm muqibk krm nhIN krny qF drgfh ivwc qyrI
iksy bfq nhIN puwCxI.ijsdy mn ivwc igafn dI kdr nhIN, Aus nfl kIVy vrgf slUk hI
hovygf.ies gwl nUM ies qrFH vI spsLt kIqf jf skdf hY ik hy mnuwK jykr sMsfr Br
dIaF votF qyry hwk `c cly jfx aqy qyry nF df lokF ivwc afdr vI hovy pr jy qyry
aml gLYrkudrqI hox qF qYnUM kI hfisl ? jws Kwt ky vI bdnfm ho jfeyNgf.qyry bury
amlF kfrx jy mnwuKqf nUM kIVy hI smiJaf igaf qF hsLr qyrf vI ieho hovygf! Bfxy
anusfr jy AuhI bMdf pRfsLicq kr lvy jF gLlqI mMn lvy qF kudrqI qOr qy Auh hor vI
guxvfn bx skdf hY.iPr Ausdy igafn dI rOsLnI nUM koeI vI aMDkfr llkfr nhIN
skdf.pr ieh sB qF hI sMBv ho skdf hY jykr Aus pursL dIaF BfvnfvF suihrd, smqol,
sMquilq, swcIaF, eImfndfr aqy suwcIaF hox!
gurnfm igwl (lMzn)
Dear Editor Ji, SSA.
gurnfm
igwl (lMzn) dy kuwJ isLar
ruwK
jo mfXUs qy qnhf bVf sihrf `c sI,
hoNd
guMmx dy zroN hux jMglIN vI zr irhY!
prqxf
qF cfh irhF qUM pr rhyNgf iks jgHf?
qyry
Gr idwqy
bdl qyry
BrfvF ijMdry!
kMizaflI
qfr dy ies qrPL asIN, dUjI qrPL Auh,
dUr
ruwK qy bYTf pMCI sfnUM
dyK ky hws ipaf !
cor-Aucwky,
sfDU, lIzr, mksd sB df iewko,
vwKo-vKwry
ZMg vrq ky, lokF nUM BrmfAuxf .
afpo-
afpxy kmry EVH ky bYTy hF pr jIAux leI,
bolf-
cflI nf shI BfvyN, bol-burflf kfPLI
hY !
BfrqI
nfgirk mry eyDr qy EDr pfiksqfnI,
ichry sfrIaF lfsLF dy pr jfpx iensfnF dy !
Duwp
jrIN, CF dyvIN, nfly imwTy Pl vI,
sVkF
qy ruwK bx ky jIvIN eys qrFH df!
nf
aMbr qy nf cMn qfry hI sfbq, AuzfrI BrF vI qF jfAUN ikDr mYN?
ipMjry
sxy AuVn jogf hF mYN qf, mgr afsmF hI slfmq
nhIN hY !
supn
hY sMsfr df
ivsLvIkrx, hAUaf nhIN,
ieh
iksy ieiqhfs df duhrf nhIN, aYvyN nf zr!
bdl
skxy nhIN sfQoNN, bxfey jo asF rsqy,
ienFH
qy sfijLsLI pYrF nUM qurno roikaf jfvy !
izgy
Gr lokF dy, mry vI lok, qyrf koeI nhIN miraf,
jy
qyQoN kuwJ
nhIN srdf
qF do hMJU
hI kyr dy .
hfkm
bysLk lokF coN hI bxdy pr,
kursI
Auqwy bihMdy sfr hI jfx bdl!
cMgf
huMdf jy ndI ivwc zuwbdI pr Es nUM,
zoibaf
dIvfr Auqly sLIisLaF dy pfxIaF!
4
“koeI
eyDr nhIN af skdf” srhwd ispfhI grjy,
pr nf rmjL ivcfrf smJy rIx hvf dy buwly dI .
AuhnUM
qnhf ijhy ruwKF `c bihky JUrnf pYNdf ,
smyN
dy hfx df ijs nUM kdy hoxf nhIN afieaf.
myry
sONhy afp af ky, ivC igaf sI rfsqf,
pYr
myry hI nf mMny qurn leI pr Es `qy .
ies
iemfrq ivwc suixaf rwb df vfsf hY pr,
ies
jgHf jo aFvdy ikAuN rwb
qoN ny byKLbr !
KwtI
Auh gwlF dI Kfvy, gwlF dy ivwc iGr nf jfvIN,
qUM
iewko hI nf smJIN, Aus kol anykF
ichry ny .
krjL
AuqfrUMgf XfdF df, eynf vI mjbUr nf
kr,
hOlI-hOlI
Buwl jfvFgf, iksLqF kr lY myry nfl
.
afpxy
hI afp nUM qUM myry ivwcoN vyK nf,
sLfPL
sLIsLy vFg ho skdF mgr sLIsLf nhIN.
vsf
skdI nhIN ijhVI GrF nUM afpxy aMdr,
iemfrq
Es df iPr kudrqI izgxf jLrUrI hY.
idnyN
hI nHyr jfpy rfq dI qF
gwl hI vwKrI,
ngr
ivc rOsLnI AuNj rfq Br hI jgmgfAuNdI hY.
kOx
hY? jo kr igaf ieAuN nINd myrI nUM hrfm,
ho
nhIN skdf prfieaf, hoxf koeI afpxf
!
sfdgI
qy sLrm dI qsvIr hI jd nf rhI,
iesLk
ivwc mYN husn dI pUjf krF qF iks qrFH?
keI
vsdy ngr ivwc Gr, keI kbrF ijhy lgdy,
bVy
hI lok
eyQy jI
rhy ny muridaF
vFgU .
jugnUMaF
qoN Pyr vI Auwcf AuVFgf ies qrFH ,
nyHrI
rfqy arsL `qy hY ilsLkdf qfrf ijvyN.
5
KrcF
awj nf sfrI, socF rwK lF kuwJ bcf
ky ,
pr
nf myQoN sFBI jfxI, klH jogI
ijLMdgLfnI !
kr
skdf hF cknfcUr mihl qyrf,
ieh
nf socIN myrf hY sLIsLy df Gr !
mfq-
BUmI smJ ky, lwK vfr mwQf tyk qUM,
pr
nf BuwlIN, eys imwtI ivwc vI ny vrmIaF!
ijnMf
vwD clfk hY bMdf imlygf jwPIaF pfky,
hfisaF
hyT lukf ky afpxI gLrjLF dI ikqfb.
PLonF
df vI Xuwg hY awCf, ruwky vI pr Gwt nhIN sn,
kfsL
jLmfnf icwTIaF vflf muV afvy iewk vfrI .
myiraF
hoTF nf’ lwg ky cuwp cfhy qoVnI ,
iks
qrFH pUrI krF? ies bMsrI dI afrjLU1
zrdIaF
ny AuVn qoN vI iqqlIaF ,
iPr
cmn nUM Kf geI iPrkU
hvf .
Kf
igaf KLpqI jLmfnf irsLiqaF dy inwG
nUM,
_____
DrqI
qy qn-mn dI Kyz
bhuiqaF gRihF bfry
jfnx nfloN, sfzy leI eynf hI kfPLI hy ik asIN Aus gRih bfry hI cMgI qrHF jfx
leIey ijs Auwpr asIN vsdy hF.ies dunIaF dI jfxkfrI hI sfzy leI kfPI hY.
ieh DrqI ijs Auwpr
asIN rojLfnf ijLMdgI dy kfrobfr krdy hF.
bhuq sfry gRihF qy
jIvn nhIN hY.sLfied pRmfqmf ny Auh jIvn leI bxfey hI nhIN hn ijvyN cMdrmf.sfzI
DrqI ivsLysL krky jIvn leI bxfeI hoeI pRqIq huMdI hY.ieh sfl ivwc iewk vfrI sUrj
duafly GuMmdI hY qy ies kfrx DrqI dy vwKo-vwKry BfgF ivwc vwK-vwK ruqF bdldIaF
hn.qy jdoN DrqI cOvI GMty ivwc iewk vfrI afpxy Dury duafly GuMmdI hY qF idn rfq
bxdy hn.
sfzI DrqI sUrj qoN
iblkul shI dUrI qy hY ijs nfl jIvn dy anukUl shI rOsLnI aqy grmI df sMcfr ho
sky.pfxI dI mfqrf, gYsF df Auicwq imsLrx, hfnIkfirk ryzIeysLn qoN bcfAux aqy sfh
lYx leI anukUl aqy ZuwkvF hY.ieh iewk kudrqI rihs hY.ivigafn dI shfieqf nfl asIN
hOlI-hOlI iesdy Byd qoN jfxU ho rhy hF.ies isRsLtI nUM inXmbwD clfAux df kfrj
ijhVI pRikrqk sLkqI kr rhI hY, Aus sLkqI df nF hI pRmfqmf hY.
BOiqk
sLrIr :DrqI dy bfkI jIvF dy
mukfbly, mnuwK srv sRysLt jIv hY.mnuwK dI KusLiksmqI ieh hY ik Aus kol sLbd dI
dfq hY jo bfkI jIvF kol nhIN hY.hor vI anykF pwKF qoN mnuwKI jUn sB qoN sRysLt
aqy suqMqr hY.afdmI iewk DrqI qoN dUjI DrqI qwk AuV skdf hY.sfgrF dI zUMGfeI mfp
skdf hY.bfkI jIvF dy ihwsy ieh sB nhIN afieaf.ivigafn dy igafn nUM syvk bxf ky,
mnuwK afpxy mn dy ivkfs dI pRikiraf nUM keI guxf qyj kr skdf hY.
sLfzf srIr Kfx-pIx ,
GuMmx-iPrn aqy sOx-jfgx leI nhIN hY.ies qrHF qF jfnvr qy psU-pMCI vI jIAuNdy
hn.afpxy srIr bfry sfnUM igafn hI nhIN hY.sfzI cmVI dy hyT srIrk ikRafvF ikvyN
cldIaF hn, ies pfsy asIN iDafn hI nhIN idMdy.
sLfzy srIr dy hr aMg
qFeI posLx aqy afksIjn phuMcfAux df kMm lhU krdf hY.mnuwKI srIr kudrq df srvoqm
qohPf hY.isRsLtI dI bfkI rcnf vFg pMjF qwqF df puqlf.jIv ivigafnIaF muqfibk sfzf
srIr hr qIjy-cOQy idn Bfv 70-80 GMty bfd bdldf rihMdf hY ikAuNik hr sikMt ivwc
lwKF hI sYwl prfxy sYlF dy mukfbly bdl jFdy hn. hYrfn krn vflI gwl ieh hY ik lhU
pRxflI dy iewk qupky ivwc lfl sYlF dI igxqI 25 kRoV jfxI ik 250 imlIan dy krIb
huMdI hY.
srIrk
inkfs : ieh inkfs kudrqI hn.mnuwK sy jMgl-pfxI jfx vFg.aOrqF df mfisk
inkfs vI iblkul iesy qrHF dI prikRaf hY.ies ivwc nf koeI sLrimMdgI vflI gwl hY
qy nf hI gMdgI vflI.ieh inkfs kudrqI hox kfrx inMdy nhIN jf skdy.ienHF ivwcoN
kuwJ srIrk BuwKF dy vDyry pRqIk hn qy kuwJ mfnisk iqRpqI dy.kuwJ srIrk vI hn qy
mfnisk vI.keIaF ivwc Bfvukqf vI sLfiml huMdI hY.
2
kfm dI BuwK srIrk
hox dy nfl, mn dI BuwK vI smJI jFdI hY.BfvyN ieh Kurfk vrgI BuwK nhIN hY pr Pyr
vI ies NnUM srIrk BuwK hI smiJaf jFdf hY ikAuNik sLrIr dy aXog hox kfrx, iewklf
mn ikRafsLIlqf pYdf nhIN kr skdf.isrP klpnf kr skdf hY.loB dI BuwK kyvl mfnisk
imQI jFdI hY.
srIr ivclIaF gRMQIaF
dy rsF df irsxf aqy AunHF df inkfs iblkul pRikrqk krm hk.aMdrUnI rsF df inkfs
mnuwK dy hwQ-bws nhIN hY.pr ies inkfs ivwc rukfvtF aqy sMbMiDq ieCfvF df Kfqmf,
srIrk aqy mfnisk ivgfV hI pYdf kr skdf hY!
mn
( Mind)
: aiDafqimk
soc vfly lok mn nUM sUKm srIr jF afqmf vrgy nF vI idMdy hn.kudrq vlo ieh sB sfzI
KopVI ivwc iPwt kIqy hoey byimsfl kMpiAUtr Bfv (Brain)
idmfgL
df hI cmqkfr hY.
idmfg dy nrv sYlF dI igxqI iewk hjLfr kRoV ( ds hjLfr imlIan) hY.hr sYl
iewk dUjy nfl sMprk rwKx leI, arbF hI joV ryisLaF (connecting
fibres) rfhIN sMcfr krdf hY.ieh kunYksLn igxqI
imxqI qoN bfhr hn.anigxq.arbF KLrbF dI igxqI……!
jy iehnF df sOvF ihwsf vI leIey qF sfrI dunIaF dy sMcfr sfDnF (tYlIPonF
afid) nfloN vDyry ho jFdf hY.ieh isrP mnuwKF dI nhIN; DrqI Auqly hor
bhuq sfry jIvF dI vI gwl hY.
grB qoN iewk mhInf ipwCoN hI ies idmfg dI isrjxf hox lwg pYNdI hY.hr imMt
ivwc lwKF hI sYl aqy inAUron bxn lgdy hn.jnm qoN bfd bwcf hOly-hOly ruVnf, qurnf,
dOVnf aqy iPr afpxy afly-duafly nUM gRihx krn lgdf hY.afpxy afp hI iblkul dUjy
lokF vFg Bfsf bolxI iswK lYNdf hY.
bflg hox dI avsQf ivwc hfrmonjL dIaF qbdIlIaF kfrx AusdI soc ivwc
jjLbfqIpn BfrU ho jFdf hY.ies Aumry aksr nINd ivwc vI idmfg, idn vyly vfprIaF
GtnfvF dI pux-Cfx krn ivwc lwgf rihMdf hY.Aumr dy vDx nfl idmfg ivwc pYdf hox
vfly jjLibaF dy nfl qrk vI smFqr ho ky qurn lgdf hY.hflfq aqy soc anusfr, hr
iewk dy jjLbfqI Aulfr df anupfq bdl skdf hY.iksy ivwc qrk qy igafn BfrU aqy iksy
ivwc jjLbfq !
buZfpy ivwc idmfg pihlI Aumr vrgf cusq nhIN rihMdf.vDyry sLrfb pIx vfly
lokF df idmfg hor vI iZwlf ho jFdf hY.iswKx aqy gRihx krn leI vDyry smF lgdf
hY.Xfd sLkqI kmjLor ho jFdI hY.
idmfg vrgf kMipAUtr ivigafnI kdy vI nhIN bxf skxgy ikAuNik krqf dI rIs
koeI nhIN kr skdf.ies krqf nUM anykF nfvF nfl Xfd kIqf jFdf hY.sfzy gurUaF aqy
pIrF-PkIrF ny vI iesy krqf dy gux gfey hn.krqf dy inXmF dI mihmf gfeI hY aqy
ienHF inXmF anusfr jIAux dI nsIaq kIqI hY.iesy nUM hukm afiKaf hY, Bfxf afiKaf
hY.
3
kudrq dy inXm anusfr
clx vflf mnuwK hI kudrq nfl ipafr kr skdf hy. kudrq qoN dUr ho cuwky mhFngrF dy
anykF lok duwK Bogdy afm vyKy jf skdy hn.pRikrqI nfl moh rwKx vfly bMdy afpxy Gr
dy Coty ijhy ivhVy ivwc vI bgIcI lf ky pRikrqk anMd mfnx dy Xog ho skdy hn.ivhly
smyN aijhy lok sLihrI BIV-BVwky qoN dUr iksy hirafvlI iekFq dI suMdrqf df anMd
mfnx nUM qrjLIh idMdy hn.
ies iksm dy lok hvf
aqy pfxI nUM pRdUisLq nhIN krdy .Auh jMgl kwtx dI bjfey rwuK lfAux bfry socdy
hn.asIN loVF qy munfPy dy ihqF nUM snmuwK rwK ky ieh gwl Buwl hI jFdy hF ik ies
pOx-pfxI dI bdOlq hI sfzI hoNd hY, ijLMdgI hY. sLRI guru arjn dyv jI df ieh vfk
sfnUM sucyq krdf hY .
“jil
Qil mhIail pUiraf rivaf ivic vxf”
mhFngrF ivwc vsx
vfly siBak mnuwK dy mukfbly jMglI mnuwK kudrq dy Byd nUM vDyry smJdf hY.dsMbr 2004 vflI sunfmI (Tsunami)
dI imsfl hI lY lvo.afid-vfsI lok jMglF ivcly
psLU-pMCIaF dIaF sUKm hrkqF qoN kuwJ GfqkI hoxI vfprn dy ikafs kfrx pihlF hI
AuwcIaF qy suriKaq QfvF vl kUc krn lwg pey sn.
afqmf
qy aMqr igafn
srIr dI mOq nfl bysLk mn, afqmf jF idmfg dI mOq lfjLmI hY pr rykI (Rekhi)
jF pfvr hIilMg vfly ijs Life
force or dynamic energy df
ijLkr krdy hn, Xogf aqy hoimEpYQI vfly vI iesdI pRoVqf krdy hn.cInI, jpfnI aqy
ihMdU iPlfsPI sLfied iesy kfrx hI pwCm ivwc afpxI pihcfx bnfAux ivwc kfmXfb hoeI
hovy!
jIAuNdy jfgdy srIr ivwc ies ielYktro-mYgnYitk sLkqI df sMcfr zfktrI
ivigafn dI njLr ivwc pRmfxq iswD ho cuwkf hY pr Pyr vI ies qy pwkI mohr afAux
vfly smyN ny hI lfAuxI hY.
ieh gwl mMnI jFdI hY ik jIB aqy sfh (pRfx) rfhIN kuwJ
gRMQIaF ijvyN hfeIpoQYlms aqy pIcUtrI nUM Auqyijq krky Extra
sensory perception vrgy
anuBv sMBv kIqy jf skdy hn.
aMqr igafn, pRyrnf jF idRsLtI (
Intuition ) afpxy aMdroN hI imldI hY.jfgRqI aqy aMqr igafn dy rsqy Auwqy qurnf
jxy-Kxy df kMm nhIN hY.ies leI sfDnf, sihj ,sLFqI aqy DIrj jLrUrI hn.
afBf ( Aura)
: ies nUrI mMzl dIaF keI prqF dwsIaF jFdIaF hn.iehnF prqF ivwc AUrjf dy cOKty
huMdy hn.ieh sfzI ijsmfnI, jjLbfqI, mfnisk aqy rUhfnI hoNd nUM pRBfvq krdy hn.
keI ivdvfn pYrfsfeIkflojI dy sMkyqF nUM smJdy hoey, ivsLvfs rwKx lwg pey
hn ik jnm acfnk nhIN sgoN rUhF dI cox muqfibk huMdf hY.grB Dfrn vyly mfqf-ipqf
dohF dy ibjleI-cuMBkI Kyqr (electro-magnetic
fields) myl
KFdy hn.ies leI rUhF dy imlfp rfhIN, asIN
4
afpxy mF-bfp afp cuxdy hF.pr ivigafnk spsLtIkrx qoN ibnF iksy gwl qy XkIn
krnf
vI isafxp nhIN huMdI.
afBf dIaF cfr prqF dwsIaF geIaF hn.pihlI prq df nF hY- aQYrik (Etheric).ieh Auh AUrjf hY ijsdf mMzl sfzy srIr duafly bhuq
nyVy huMdf hY ijsdf nyVlf sMbMD mnuwK dy DNA
nfl huMdf hY.
ies AUrjf ivwcoN awgy swq cwkr jF AUrjf pRxflIaF PuwtdIaF hn.hr AUrjf df
afpo afpxf rMg hY.vfqfvrx, mfnisk rONa aqy iKaflF anusfr iesdf rMg qbdIl huMdf
rihMdf hY.ieh sfry kyNdr iewk dUjy nfl sMbMiDq hn.sB qoN Auprly kyNdr df nUr jF
rOsLnI hyTF vfilaF df posLx krdI hY.jdoN iksy vI cwkr dy kyNdr ivwc AUrjf dy
vhfE ivwc ivGn pvy qF ijsmfnI rog dy lwCx prgt hox lgdy hn.
aYstrl (Astral)
prq sfzy jjLbfqI jIvn nfl sMbMD rKdI hY.
qIjI prq hY- Mental
ijhVI BivwK dI soJI nfl juVI hoeI huMdI hY.ieh sfzy iKLaflF dI iblkul Ausy qrHF
pux-Cfx krdI hY ijvyN ryzIE qrMgf tI vI sYwt nMU isgnl ByjdIaF hn.
cOQI prq hY kyQYirk (Ketheric)
.ieh srIr qoN iqMn Puwt AuwcI sunihrI-suMdr rOsLnI dy rUp ivwc, mn dI qIjI awK
rfhIN vyKI jf skdI hY.
ieh afBf sLkqI sfry bRihmMz ivwc hI mOjUd huMdI hY.DrqI dI afp